Waning and Rambling

Waning and rambling Current mood: Many mooded mama
I am sad....
The braemer pit stop open mic is no longer being hosted by my buddy Roger, so now I guess I need to find a new spot. bah.
I am happy...
I walked a whole bunch this weekend for the "weekend to end breast cancer" very positive enlightening experience (groovy groovy vibes Y'all). I saw parts of the city I had never seen before, parts of Langside with tiles of religious figures adorning the front wall, streets with no streets only front yards reaching a sidewalk which then leads to another front yard. pavement, cobblestone, gravel. Definitely a mind over matter sort of experience rounded off with...
A fantastic show by Andrew Neville and the Poor Choices and The Deep Dark Woods at a place which seems to lead me to the heavy drinking. With bound feet and a slow determined swagger I watched the bands, the people, and then the sun rise with the happy folks of Times. Blathering in my verbiose state about how on Sunday I will make it to the jam and play, but when Sunday rolls around I am lying in bed trying to control the evil demons with the jackhammer living there, surfing the waves of nausea, in no way making it out the door. where is that mind over matter when you REALLY need it?
I am philisophical????
to completely mis-quote some guy named Ghandi, apparently the way to find oneself is in the service of others. I don't think that I had ever really lost myself, I was there all along being drowned out by the busy. (self-inflicted of course) Even with the occasional bout of the lonelies, (did I mention the long walk was on my onesys? ) I have found myself to be surrounded by some really good hearted peoples. I just need to remember to keep an open heart, which is scary with the world full of evil heart breakers lurking behind bar stools and light posts and smiling faces. I guess it's better to have a beat up inner wild flower that everyone can enjoy, then a perfect one no one can.
I am so outta here....
So sometimes my work takes me outside to the banana belt of Manitoba, other times it keeps me trapped in a cubicle with conditioned air. While my buddies are tearing down the kids fest, in the beautiful out of doors. I am departing this land of flourescent, river bound, for a cold one. Gotta love the cold ones, with the good guys.
(I finally have taken Kent McAlisters Cd out of my car, and can listen to it here in the world of temporary walls, perhaps a revolution will be inspired to tear down the walls, or maybe build a whiskey still)
Currently listening : Memory Replacer By Kent Mcalister & His Band Release date: 05 May, 2005